Relationships
Hey everyone, it's me again! Soo it's that time again, sorry I haven't been on much but today I want to give my experience on relationships and this is why I haven't done a blog for a while because it scares me to open up this much, so please respect what I have to say and also try not to preach your way of thinking to me or anybody who feels the same.
For all you peeps who know me well, you haven't really seen me in a relationship during my time with my crohns, this is because I am too frightened to let anybody get close to me with all the hospital visits and my bad days. I wouldn't like anyone to put up with my issues with this illness, I've tried it before and felt more than a burden than anything else, I'm not saying I won't go into a relationship with another person, it's just that I'm waiting for someone who can see past me illness and see who I really am and where I am at the moment some people tend to highlight my illness as a wall.
Like I said in my previous blogs, my past experiences, people have been nasty saying my illness isn't that bad or its all in my head and I think that has also effected me in a bad way and it's stuck on to me like a shadow where it's hard to shake it off, I don't want to give them any bad feelings for doing this, in a way it's slowly making me prove them there wrong. There's also really kind people out there who have pointed out that my illness has made me who I've become today, in that I have gone through so much and done so much to help myself and others around me, you guys and gals are the kindest human beings I can ever ask for and don't ever change!!
Then I move on to my actual body, I am thin, never getting any fatter or actually putting on much muscle, which in this day and age everyone is doing this and seems like a requirement, along with this and my scars I don't have the confidence to flash my body to anyone as I worry too much about what people think.
So, all I ask of anyone who reads this, please don't judge a book by its cover, you don't know what's going on in their pages.
Update
As I've been away for three months, I don't really have much to say with me, only that my participation with the inflectra trials are going really good, the specialists in charge are really happy with my results, only one issue is that I've got so much energy I have to take sleeping tablets just to get some sleep, yet again it is early days and hopefully my body with adjust to the treatment.
Once again, thank you for taking some of your own time to read my blogs and I hope you enjoy them.
CIAO FOR NOWWWWW
For all you peeps who know me well, you haven't really seen me in a relationship during my time with my crohns, this is because I am too frightened to let anybody get close to me with all the hospital visits and my bad days. I wouldn't like anyone to put up with my issues with this illness, I've tried it before and felt more than a burden than anything else, I'm not saying I won't go into a relationship with another person, it's just that I'm waiting for someone who can see past me illness and see who I really am and where I am at the moment some people tend to highlight my illness as a wall.
Like I said in my previous blogs, my past experiences, people have been nasty saying my illness isn't that bad or its all in my head and I think that has also effected me in a bad way and it's stuck on to me like a shadow where it's hard to shake it off, I don't want to give them any bad feelings for doing this, in a way it's slowly making me prove them there wrong. There's also really kind people out there who have pointed out that my illness has made me who I've become today, in that I have gone through so much and done so much to help myself and others around me, you guys and gals are the kindest human beings I can ever ask for and don't ever change!!
Then I move on to my actual body, I am thin, never getting any fatter or actually putting on much muscle, which in this day and age everyone is doing this and seems like a requirement, along with this and my scars I don't have the confidence to flash my body to anyone as I worry too much about what people think.
So, all I ask of anyone who reads this, please don't judge a book by its cover, you don't know what's going on in their pages.
Update
As I've been away for three months, I don't really have much to say with me, only that my participation with the inflectra trials are going really good, the specialists in charge are really happy with my results, only one issue is that I've got so much energy I have to take sleeping tablets just to get some sleep, yet again it is early days and hopefully my body with adjust to the treatment.
Once again, thank you for taking some of your own time to read my blogs and I hope you enjoy them.
CIAO FOR NOWWWWW
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